Days just passed by without you knowing, don't they?
IT'S SEPTEMBER!
like within a snap of the finger..no..maybe even when your fingers touch right before the snap
WALA!
it's a new month! in this case, one of the most terrifying months ever =(
i'm expecting this month to be exceptionally challenging..
for one: exams are 30 days down the road
2: the guy factor
3: im gonna get busy with everything that totally doesn't matter to me
oh well,that's life.

OH!!!! talk about fate
i just spotted a 'have you registered for heaven' T-shirt..
gets me thinking...
so, im 16, only another 85-16=69 years till i leave earth of old age
then what will happen if God takes me up tomorrow?or tonight?
coooool.....
the thought of death always strike me..
should i kill myself now?
or now?
what bout now?
how should i kill myself?
hang?*too cliche
jump*too much to handle!
drink poison*chicken
run into the sea of speeding cars?*wat if my bf catches me and he gets hit?!!!
so, i decided.
it's either i die of old age
or..
i get killed for a good cost =)
definition of good cost:
~take a bullet for anyone i care for~
~stabbed and chop into pieces by natives during a mission trip~
and i can't think of anymore, so my list ends there =)
whatever it is, i am so against dying caused by some freak accident
like getting run into by some drunk mat rempit
or
felling of a flight of stairs
or anything that stupid!
and im SO not gonna die of some silly sickness or cancer*if i can help it,which i can't*haiz

GONNA CHERISH THIS MONTH OF SEPTEMBER NO MATTER HOW BADLY IT GOES, JUST IN CASE I LEAVE EARTH IN OCTOBER
*then my studying for finals would go to waste =?

PUBERTY CAN BE SUCH TROUBLE!

k let me get this straight.
i love being a girl and i love being a teenager
which makes it i love being a teenage girl
but stuff like pimples that pop out endlessly!
and the jungle-like pubic hair!let's not even get there...
the leg hair alone is enough to keep me busy for an hour!
owh please don't get me started on the over loaded pad!
which eventually results with red patches on my poor pure white skirt!
and the cramps...*groans!
but then again im thankful that its the females that are capable of bearing
the bundle of joy and not the male, that would be totally wrong!
imagine a male telling his wife
"honey, i think im pregnant"
owh NO!!!
NO!
and then many painful months later
he conceives the child through the anus!
owh my gawsh!
what a thought!
know what? pimples..cramps...armpit hair..wateva it may be..
do your job of making me the one that quote the famous line
"my period's late"

It was Mathew's Sweet 16!
*as gay as it sounds, sweet 16 applies for boys too

just last year...

he look like that..

and now...

he's the weirdes guy i ever met

so weird

so so weird!

but he can be..normal

civilize

so to dashing mathew:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Thank God for your good looks, now all you need is a body.XD
don't give the ladies too high hope *wink ;)
maintain the non-ego self esteem
the weirdness in you is what makes you special and likeable,gosh!
you're rather bless aren't you =)
constantly keep that smile on thy face glowing
and
keep the smile on others' face too
we'll miss u when u're finally off to the land that cries 'baaa..'

thought of the day

somewhere in Romans, a verse quoted that we should be happy together with does who are happy. sounds easy ain't it? but what happened if that unknown fictional character is happy because of something that upset you?
it'll be totally not human like to fix a smile and pretend nothing happened. but then again holding grudges against one's pal is totally off my principals so...
what a dilemma!
forgive and forget are two valuable values that few can master trying to be that few or maybe to be LIKE those few is indeed a challenge on its own, what more being those few. *solute to THE ONES at the age 16, facing silly little rivalries can be unexpectedly frustrating. learning to stand on my own feet and speaking with my own voice are on my to-learn list (which existed since years ago)
anyway, back to the topic... i would really really want to be someone that accept apologies as it comes and just push every harsh thoughts towards that particular somebody at the back of my mind and hopefully not be bothered by it as much. it is really confusing to have more than one person telling u the same things. and the worst part, knowing the person u wanna forget so much means it way more than the other who seem so far away. i don't want to go through another drama! please don't put me through this AGAIN...
by the way, i truly and sincerely wished i wasn't such a PMS freak. getting upset at people for no apparent reason had been my trade mark lately and i would really appreciate it if those bad thoughts were erased from thy memory. arigato husaimas...did i get it right?*
so...as i was saying before i felt so guilty for what had just happened, from today onwards, im gonna make that to-learn list come to life and even if my smiles aren't always genuine, i will attempt pasting it there. after all smiles are great disguise =) *that's a genuine smile

nanannananana

looking out my window..
i see the trees..blowing in the wind
i see the birds..flying in the sky

lol...it's a good day =)

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got inspired to blog more after reading ying's blog..
thinking session starts now..
i just realize how busy i have been lately.
life was dead for the pass few months, but now, everything is thrown to me.
i enjoy it most of the time but sometimes you just get really annoyed when you want something done then and then but you 'helpers' are just slowing you down by a mile!
i think..i know i am really impatient when it comes to work.
if i need something, i want it at that second, any later and i get frustrated.
hate it when people deelee-dalee around when they are suppose to be working hard to achieve something else
i apologize if i had been an ass to anybody (so far) and pre-apologize for my faults to come.
people are not perfect and i am planets away from it.
even trying to BE perfect isn't working for me.
im actually kinda worried for my studies.
normally, i only freak out for/about my studies when exams are near, other than that, screw studies!
but lately, after running about so much, i kinda miss sitting down at my study table,
just flipping through pages after pages of non ending history about people with long
weird names that seem almost impossible to remember.
so know what? im gonna start studying again.
and this is just so to keep me secure
and to avoid giving up my year end holidays to study.
wanna know a fact about me?
i HATE accounts.
stupid patterns
stupid figures
stupid terms in BM
stupid marking system
stupid different books!
why can't they all use the same book!
which reminds me:
BK quiz is THIS Saturday!
im dead..
im dead...
im sosososo dead....!

breathe

things i absolutely have to accomplish before i die:

1. learn to cook a GOOD meal
2. get a white grand piano
3. visit Rome
4. sew a successful white gown for my sister's wedding
5. climb up some mountain that ain't Malaysian
6. live on fluid alone for one full day
7. get an A for BM
8. own a red VW Beatle!!
9. get married and get 2 kids
10. read the Bible from cover to cover

wooohooo! yeah man....