left behind?

thinking back..to think forward

people that were once my age are now in various colleges spread out through out the world, striving dreams while having the time of their lives.
some of them are doing these designing courses, actually make that A LOT of them are into designing and the stuff they create are jaws-dropping! the details, even the spec is custom made! it's that perfect.
and there are people like my sister that are shooting towards the sky *in literal sense.
point is, everybody above 18 seem to be having the time of their lives!
doing crazy stuff.
can't wait to feel that sense of freedom. it's like the perfect world to be.
the big building with it's big compound accompanied by people i love and care for, probably with my soul mate to be. having my red Volkswagen beetle.
life.is.awesome

every time i view my youth leaders' blogs, there's that sense of nostalgia.
amazes me how they keep in touch with each other when they are everywhere!
it really touches me to see how people could grow up together like from toddler stage to their
'old' self now. friendship. so sophisticated!

gosh! soon i'll turn 17 then 18! and i'll be off to college..and separated from my fellow friends.
even as i speak, people are leaving me to pursue their studies and courier.
oh my gosh...growing up is so scary!!
hate goodbyes.
it's not that u won't see the leaving party ever again, it's just the thought of it.
so far!
really afraid to know what God has plan out for me.
i mean i know it's going to be good, but im just scared to leave my comfort zone,
to start a new routine.
before i know it, i'll be clubbing, driving (excited but terrified to), getting my first official job, enjoy shopping with my hard earnt money.soon i'll get married and going through the most horrifying pain, and then the finance planing, and finding the right school for the minis..
that's when i'll loose count of my age.

OH GAWSH! can't wait to live the life!

HAPPY SWEET 16

Hey dear!
you're 16! can you believe it? it's as if we just grew like *snap that!
really blessed to have gotten to know you
continue to shine the special light in you!
God bless
=)

Live.Revolution 2008

Back in May, due to some unforeseen circumstances,
our annual camp had to be brought forward.
but it's cool, it was still fun..
kinda draggy, but we all enjoyed ourselves
=)

that was my group's
not that i painted it or anything
but
awesome ain't it?
=D
*i contributed the markers =D

Jit Yang look-alike
XD

my team leader..
was their facilitator

yeah, he fell asleep during games
......

introducing Cadet Pilot Jian Shen

david : sms me at 3am! asking if i was asleep?! what the heck?! but i was awake..so yey =)
eunice : injures herself almost every week
ian : some weirdo chindian dude..haha..

during the sabo period..
people were going wild with shaving cream..toothpaste..it was barbaric!!
but super duper fun!

starring: weirdo eunice, amanda,me and june!

we got bored..
i mean a 5 day camp!
in a school!
with the same faces XD

isn't he the most adorable guy EVER!
so honored to be able to have lunch with the young gentlemen
he's quite a show off, always shuffling and doing his little handstands

the leaders.
they were singing 'mighty jungle' and doing all the actions..
it was hilarious!!!

mr.ladies man-joshua & mr. wanna be ladies man-nixon
*sorry nixon =)

some of us =]

conclusion made: AWESOME

*really gotta change my mono smile

My team. I love them. even though they are annoying, disobedient and disrespectful at times, they are still my beloveds.


During Merdeka Marching

marching to the center of the field

Formation #2. The Heart

ah! we look untidy! why the hand one up one down!!!
and check line not suppose to turn your head u know?!!
we kiri belok is it?
AHH!!! not nice! not nice!
and we won?!
we won!

still in shock from winning. we weren't fantastic, could have done so much better.
then again, sorry for yelling at u guys after winning but i have reasonable reasons.
still, my apologies.
to my commander: Awesome


click to zoom in

From the back

My Seniors:
Miss ShuYi,Miss Stephanie,Miss KayTze,Sir DaoShen,
my commander: SL KahKheng,Sir Benjamin

My Marchers:

ASL WaiLoan, ShiJing, SL LiRen, KelvinKoay,ASL ShiMin,ASl Mindy,SL SiewYan,MayLing, YinYan,Brandon,WeiKeong,JoelMeyerAlfred,Felicia,Rachel,YingSie,ShinYee,ChowXin aka muah sister,TungJun,KokChong,ChenYuen,TzeHeng,NigelTing,Joshua,ZhanYeh*the one who fainted and totally freaked me out!,Sir YinChuan and me HSL ChowErn
absent: YoongLiung,EdwinSam

*credits to SL PeiShan for the pictures

I GOT MARRIED?
ahahaha! bull shit!
we were shooting this advertisement for some hair product 'shurei'
as Rachele's (ranee's sister) asignment.

it was REALLY fun.. i ran in 3inches pumps with a suppose-to-be-gown and a VEIL! and the best part, i had to run in all that in OneUtama several times to get the best shot..shoot..wateva they call it..

Jack was my 'groom'

the things ranee get me to do..

Adri was fabulous..really, he was =)

if you're bored, watch the making.
or not go to www.chronicalsofshorty.blogspot.com to view the edited version
( this happened sometime in June-July )

THE MAKING

take 1-st.ignatius

one of the many scenes...

in OneUtama (one of the many 'takes' or wateva u call it =] )


my advice: don't ever! ever! turn down any opportunity to do silly stuff like that.
life is short, you're only gonna be a kid for a short period of time!
don't waste your teenage hood, it's precious.

the good vs the evil..MuahAhaHaha

you know, i don't know if it's just me or what's up with this!:

every time i double click on a churchy's blog link, there's this instant spark! and whoa..! even though they are just talking bout their life and nothing sophisticated, there's this big bang as if they are like some super-the-known celebrity. i mean really, makes me happy to see how they handle their lives and how they are ALWAYS ALWAYS happy. sometimes, it gets me thinking 'is God practicing favoritism?' its's as if they had taken some mega power happy pill. everything just falls into place perfectly like a 500 pieces jigsaw puzzle. REALLY! im not lying! it really does show when your faith in God is THAT much..i should feel ashame of myself now, shouldn't i? regrets..regrets...but i guess, we learn from our mistakes. i take mistakes as a way for He to show us the right way =) man! that sound so goody..never blogged this way before..lol.
whenever people pray for u or vice versa and they go or u go something like 'let their lives be a testimony for you', have you any idea how powerful those few words that form just that simple line means?! it's beyond understanding of the simplicity of a human mind! it really does show when you're a true *********. people naturally respect you. i mean just look at the CF leaders for instance, see how their lives influenced the people around them? man..i really have to change A LOT about myself..hopefully this sudden blast in my brain would last and keep happening...Maybe being judge by others is worth it after all *shrunks =)

lalala

random picture
emo-looking picture

random cam-whore picture

that's for starters..
in the process of getting the rest of the photos...
therefore, another day, another time, another post

NOSTALGIA

NOSTALGIA

even though CF camp 2008 wasn't anything close to what i expected, it was a memorable one..like any other. i really really miss peace heaven! every time a cool breeze blow through my hair, i'll automatically think of Peace Heaven. Gosh! i mean..the fun...the sense of freedom..the bonding!..it's indescribable!

THE FUN!
as childish as it seems..it was actually really fun

THE PATIENCE
we sat and wait..and wait..4 more buses! 3 more buses...2...1! hoORAY!

THE...i don't know...mail box?

THE COMMITMENT AND SACRIFICES
see that fish in that plate? that's not extra food. that's the only left overs. the poor boys were working their ass off with...wateva they were doing. point is, sacrificing their meal! for the campers!wow..

THE COURAGE
it's not easy to stand up there talking to tiny eyes that stares right back at cha

THE MEGA HUGE SACRIFICE
i wanted to play the games too.. for 2 years continuously, i have been put in the games department. so, all i get to do is watch the fun and not be IN the fun =( depressing i know. but someone gotta do it, and im one of the lucky ones

THE TORTURE =(
you think that's cereals?
that is WAY OFF cereals man..
that's alfalfa with wasabi..
first, u get the stingy taste of alfalfa in your mouth, then you sense a certain spice.
just in time for you to throw up

All in all, Peace Heaven always bring me good and happy thoughts.
*especially when im in deep crap like now.

reminds me how much i've neglected him...i'll do my devotions DAILY from now on...i would NOT take him for granted ever again!

Days just passed by without you knowing, don't they?
IT'S SEPTEMBER!
like within a snap of the finger..no..maybe even when your fingers touch right before the snap
WALA!
it's a new month! in this case, one of the most terrifying months ever =(
i'm expecting this month to be exceptionally challenging..
for one: exams are 30 days down the road
2: the guy factor
3: im gonna get busy with everything that totally doesn't matter to me
oh well,that's life.

OH!!!! talk about fate
i just spotted a 'have you registered for heaven' T-shirt..
gets me thinking...
so, im 16, only another 85-16=69 years till i leave earth of old age
then what will happen if God takes me up tomorrow?or tonight?
coooool.....
the thought of death always strike me..
should i kill myself now?
or now?
what bout now?
how should i kill myself?
hang?*too cliche
jump*too much to handle!
drink poison*chicken
run into the sea of speeding cars?*wat if my bf catches me and he gets hit?!!!
so, i decided.
it's either i die of old age
or..
i get killed for a good cost =)
definition of good cost:
~take a bullet for anyone i care for~
~stabbed and chop into pieces by natives during a mission trip~
and i can't think of anymore, so my list ends there =)
whatever it is, i am so against dying caused by some freak accident
like getting run into by some drunk mat rempit
or
felling of a flight of stairs
or anything that stupid!
and im SO not gonna die of some silly sickness or cancer*if i can help it,which i can't*haiz

GONNA CHERISH THIS MONTH OF SEPTEMBER NO MATTER HOW BADLY IT GOES, JUST IN CASE I LEAVE EARTH IN OCTOBER
*then my studying for finals would go to waste =?